Thursday, September 11, 2008

Freedom

Today is one of those dates, one of those days we all remember in the same way and yet differently.

I'd venture to say all of us over age 20 could tell you precisely where they were 7 years ago. I can still recall the feelings of 7 years ago.

I am proud to be an American. Even with the stupid things we do, admitting our many faults, in the grand scheme of things, I am proud to be an American, warts and all.

And so is it a little ironic perhaps that now Sept 11th will have a new meaning for me. Freedom in a whole new way. I came home from work late again to find a folder in my mailbox. I opened it up. And there, finally, were the divorce papers. Finally.

I opened the folder and quickly scanned them - just as we agreed, plain and simple, d-i-v-o-r-c-e. I still have to "answer." And in this state, we have to have a hearing in front of the judge.

But I am one Very Big Step Closer to the rest of my life.

Freedom.

My mommy asked me how I felt when I opened the folder. Honestly? "GREAT."

Is that weird? Am I bad?

[Edited to add: for a GREAT 9/11 tribute, read Mel A Dramatic Mommy's post here]

10 comments:

Cheri @ Blog This Mom! said...

I don't think you're weird or bad. Seriously. I had the biggest sigh of relief and not one moment of regret when I got mine. It's good to know you're doing the right thing, very good.

Lex said...

I got my folder today too. Filled with all the paperwork that will go to the preparer to finalize everything. Unfortunately I do not feel great about it. Sick actually. But I don't think you're weird. Perhaps eventually I will feel great too.

Suz said...

The fact that you are feeeling "great" about this says it is the right thing to do.
"Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose"
I don't know why that lyric just came to me...now it will be in my head all day.
take care,
Suz

Punk Rock Dad said...

Are you bad?.....Hells No!

Melissa said...

When I got my papers almost 10 months ago I threw a party. It was a relief.

When the actual court date came I cried when I walked out of the courtroom. Not for myself or the ex, but for my children. And I guess it was crying for something I thought would never happen.

Divorce brings on many emotions. One minute you are happy and the next you are in the dumps. For right now enjoy being on the up side of things!

Mrs. G. said...

Well not everything about divorce has to be happy-you are getting a new leason on life.

k. mead said...

not bad at all to be happy to say goodbye to a bad scene. Good luck!

joe said...

You have every right to feel good about this. You've given everything you can and from what we've seen there hasn't been much effort on his part. It's time for you to move forward and enjoy your new chapter!

DYSFUNCTIONAL MOM said...

No way. I got divorced on Valentine's Day. The day my divorce was final, I went out at partied like a rock star.
Just like you said...FREEDOM. It's a wonderful thing.

hulagirlatheart said...

NO, it just means you're ready to sign and move on.