Yep that's pretty much it.
I have a fatal flaw (just one you ask? Oh I'm sure there are more)
My most annoying (personally i.e. to me) fatal flaw: I'm a melter.
Now you might think I'm a strong girl. I live alone. I have 2 fab 16 YO twins, I am climbing the partner ladder in a big firm, I teach Sunday School and volunteer in the kids' school, I do pro bono legal work. Yep, all around strong chick.
And then today happens.
The medical appointment I've waited 4 weeks for and called about every week to see if there's a cancellation so that I can slide in earlier? CANCELED
And when rescheduling I find out that the test I am so eagerly awaiting? Well that will happen on the SECOND appointment, not the first. Yep a follow-up.
My insurance is changing with the life change and I have no idea of any of this medical stuff is covered b/c I can't understand our benefits write up. (and I'm supposed to be a lawyer).
A GIANT zit is growing on my chin. Wait not giant. GINORMOUS. Did I mention I'm (maybe)seeing BF this weekend?
The trip to see BF in Fla? BF is now on call and I might have to cover SOCCER.
SIS inLaw calls in for backups over the weekend. When I don't have the kids. Either I get a driver for Daughter to soccer tournament or cancel trip to take her myself so that Sis In Law can have a weekend off (a much deserved weekend)
Female parts go haywire - (any more is TMI trust me)
Brief that should be filed by noon is still being played with by partners at 6pm....
FIL calls for ride to get car and you can't say no b/c he always helps you out.
Pretty much all of the above hit within 15 minutes today.
And what did I do? Attack with a plan? NO
focus and organize the things I can change? NO
Sit at my desk and melt? YES PICK ME PICK ME
I totally folded. It's like life is hanging on by a thread. And when any one of the pieces doesn't fall into place, the whole damned thing comes crashing down. I closed my door and cried. I mentally broke up with BF. I canceled all trips for the next 40 years of my life. I mentally quit my job and then remembered the mortgage payments.
Time lapsed 30 seconds.
Text BF and plead emotional breakdown. And admit my silly meltdown and he just said he understood. Sigh.
Apologize to secretary for biting her head off.
Give up on partner filing brief and leave office to help Dad with car.
Call Dr.s and figure out where to go from here, minimizing more waiting time.
But on ride home remember that my first reaction? TOTAL MELTDOWN.
And I am ashamed. And I wonder, do other people react like this? Or am I just a